I don't even know where to begin. I had a baby a couple of weeks ago. It is still incredible to me, and I have not processed the fact. It's too wild.
I am overwhelmed with new baby life and am now at the coffee shop taking a little break, while our baby is with my husband.
Well! Things are actually looking good! I know, crazy!
We had our ultrasound yesterday, at 9 1/2 weeks. And our baby is right on track! Heartbeat and size are perfect for 9 1/2 weeks, and it all looks good. I have little pictures and videos of the ultrasound. We saw him move his little arms and legs and wiggle around. So crazy! He's only an inch long right now, but it's wild that an inch long…
I have been meaning to write an update, but it has been a long while. So here we are! It's egg donor time. After a long wait for our previous donor, who fell through, we found a donor we loved at a different clinic. Thankfully, things have gone relatively quickly through this process with this clinic. We selected our donor at the beginning of November, got all the paperwork done, wrote some very…
We are working on our next step - proceeding with donor eggs. Looking to donor eggs is a lot to wrap our heads around. We had a donor we liked very much lined up. She was supposed to donate for us after the cycle she was doing for other intendend parents. And that sounded good till after that cycle, when she felt that the retrieval had taken a lot out of her, and she needed time to recover and…
We have been working through making peace with our next options. I have had a hard time adjusting to the idea of egg donation or adoption. I would be open to adoption, but my husband prefers egg donation. And I am okay with that too. It makes sense as the best choice for us, but it is still a strange process and a lot to work through to be ready.
I have been doing so much research about these…
Well, my husband and I are on a small getaway to the coast. It feels good to be away for a couple of nights. Walk along the water, eat good food, sleep a lot, wander around the town, play video games. It’s good.
We did the embryo transfer with our final embryos and got nothing. Well, one of them was not growing right, so we did not transfer it. Our doctor said if it implants it is headed for a…
Well, our embryo transfer is tomorrow. I am a bit nervous, but in a much better place for it emotionally than I would have been if we had done it a month or two ago. So that’s something. I have been doing these self-compassion meditations, that are a part of the meditation study I am taking part in. Did I talk about that? Oh maybe not. It is an 8 week course of doing daily meditation using…
Well, we are taking a break. Just a litle bit, for a month or so.
After our miscarriage, we were doing somewhat sort of okay, and wanted to press ahead with the transfer of our remaining two embryos. My doctor had me do a new saline infused sonogram (where they put some saline into the uterine cavity to puff it up slightly and use an ultrasound to check the shape of the cavity) to check to be…