This is such a trippy, surreal experience. I am 25 1/2 weeks pregnant.

Things seem to be going well. We made it through the anatomy scan at 21 weeks, with a follow up at 24 weeks because they couldn't quite get all the images they needed. My belly is big and I look so pregnant. My sister in law is planning a baby shower. It's wild!

We are now into planning baby supplies and doing normal things to prepare for a baby. It is so strange! The transition to normal pregnancy is lovely, but after years in the infertility space, suddenly having things be normal, and people talk about it and are so excited, it feels bizarre. I've been working on pregnancy things for so long, but suddenly it's all exciting and cute. And even more shocking, might lead to an actual baby!

I know all about trying and failing to have a baby, but nothing about actually succeeding. It's a bit absurd.

But now I have this giant belly, and feel wiggles and thumps sporadically, day and night, eating and resting are more critical and I have so much to do. Deciding where the baby will sleep, what supplies we need. What on earth do we name him? How do we deal with all the things?

It is all good stuff but it blows my mind.