We have been working through making peace with our next options. I have had a hard time adjusting to the idea of egg donation or adoption. I would be open to adoption, but my husband prefers egg donation. And I am okay with that too. It makes sense as the best choice for us, but it is still a strange process and a lot to work through to be ready.

I have been doing so much research about these topics, trying to understand what egg donation means for our future children and for us, going forward. Because it is with you forever. I mean, once you take that step, it is a part of our lives for ever more. And that isn’t bad, but it means we can’t take anything lightly.

I don’t feel able to break down all the nuance about that right now. But it is a lot to process. It is crucial to be open about our choice, not hide anything from our children, and not make anything shameful or a secret. Just because something is new or unfamiliar doesn’t mean it’s bad. So we will embrace donor conception to make it a beautiful blessing for me, my husband and our children, and our donor, to the best of our ability.